1. I controlled my portions and ate really healthy food. I focused on strengthening the connection between my body and my mind. I realized a few days ago as I was stuffing myself full of food that my body was clearly in distress and no longer required food. All of my actions were psychological and I was indulging them in a way that was actually causing me pain. I need to work with my body, not against it. This means waiting for signs of hunger before I eat. This means keeping myself hydrated.

2. I pushed myself out of my comfort zone and went and hung out with Lyle/friends, and then went out to a party with Sam and Maddie. Sam was really rude to me and at the moment, I distanced myself from her. I tried to have a good time anyway. When I had her alone, I told her how I felt and I was sincere and direct. She tried to make it better by walking me out of the party and told me I was pretty and that if she wasn’t with Andrew, she’d be with me and that it was really hard for her to turn me down. Sounds like she’s trying to string me along. I was direct with her again and I brought that issue up and I made sure we were on the same page: we are just friends. I’m coming to find that I view her more as a symbol of being with a girl. As a person, I think she’s often malicious. I don’t think we’d have a very healthy relationship.

3. I did an hour of yoga! And I felt really great for hours afterward.

4. I dressed up in a pretty cute outfit to go to the party and I’m excited that I had an occasion to dress up and that people saw me in it. Many compliments.

5. I woke up relatively early and got straight to work. I wrote a 4-page research paper in about an hour and a half; one draft!

6. I bonded a bit more with Lyle and Aladin. They seemed a lot friendlier today; I think Aladin’s finally comfortable hanging out with me. They wanted me to roll the joint, and made me try their little trick (balancing on a fixie while taking a bong rip), and invited me to go to Coachella with them. I’m feeling a new level of acceptance with them. They’re good kids.