September 2011
1 post
July 2011
6 posts
“Have you considered the possibility that everything is going to be all right?”
– My new mantra for calming anxiety.
I can’t be everyone’s friend. And that’s my problem; I try to be too nice. I don’t stand up for myself. Well, it’s okay to have people not like me. I need to be assertive and confident and I know I already am those things. I think what does me in the most is how fragile I perceive myself to be. In perceiving it, I am creating it..
Casey snipped at me today. “Do...
Why can’t I edit my other post? Anyway, major recent events of note:
-I have officially decided to go to medical schools. My GPA is pretty good, my extracurriculars are impressive (probably three publications by the time I graduate!), and I’m aiming high on the mcat. It’s strangely relieving to finally succumb to this path; it definitely wasn’t an easy or quick decision...
I’m still deciding what I want to do with this new blog and what direction I want to take it in. See, I had another blog. I was on it for over two years and it was a really interesting experience for me, but it was just getting too constrictive. My exes, friends I barely knew, and even mothers of friends I barely knew were following me. I just didn’t feel like I could express myself...
I was watching the women’s World Cup all morning and was super excited when I got a text about pick-up soccer. Even though I haven’t played in weeks, I gotta say I had one of my best games yet. Three goals, a bunch of good assists. And then I came home and study-study-studied for a few hours. I think I did great today! :)
This past week has been really stressful and I’ve turned to food as comfort. Bad idea. I feel like I’m almost at the point I was at two weeks ago. I don’t know if I have the time in my schedule to go to the gym, but that’s ridiculous, right? I need to make it happen. I had such a great time when I first started getting serious. I felt great, I looked great. I was...
June 2011
28 posts
I wish school was easier. It’ll all pay off though, right?
I'm secretly relieved
to no longer be living with you. You brought a lot of negativity into my life. You and your little cronie (don’t even get me started on her). The whole year was very bittersweet for me (I almost described it as a racemic mixture.. nerd alert). Though you did inspire me to cook well and dress well, your immaturity and overall bad attitude were very hard to deal with. Why am I expected to walk...
Maximum Productivity.
The amount of work I’m putting into MCAT prep is astonishing and so far, it’s been incredibly rewarding. I’m being forced to understand concepts I haven’t seen in years and the rate at which I’m picking it back up is a testament to how well I studied them the first time around.
It’s becoming more difficult to focus on my body but I’ve been eating...
“As my old climbing instructor used to say: Good judgment comes from experience,...”
– Good advice from Professor Fessler.
"Work your body, then reward it with nutrition."
Simple.
I have a scar on my knee that I dubbed the “Dave scar”. I got it that day we were hiking in Escondido Canyon. I promised myself I would heal before it did. And here I am now, almost fully recovered. And so is the scar. Looks like we tied.
Personal rule:
Never turn down an invitation to soccer. You always enjoy it.
It's not as fragile as you think.
But the more you think about it, the less strong it seems.
Solution: clear your thoughts of it. Just wake up each day with a motivation to make the right decisions. You’ll feel very accomplished at the end of the day. Although some parts of my night weren’t so great, I still feel an overarching sense of achievement. It’s great.
I'm very proud of myself today.
1. I controlled my portions and ate really healthy food. I focused on strengthening the connection between my body and my mind. I realized a few days ago as I was stuffing myself full of food that my body was clearly in distress and no longer required food. All of my actions were psychological and I was indulging them in a way that was actually causing me pain. I need to work with my body, not...
I'm actually becoming quite comfortable with how...
S: You never go out.
D: I go out often enough.
S: Yeah, to go hang out with Lyle.
D: So what? I also go the gym and play soccer and..
S: But none of those things are fun.
D: Those things are fun for me.
And so it begins.
This is a before picture. June 9th, 2011. The beginning of an effort to track my progress. Weight loss is not the primary focus of this project. This is more a physical manifestation of my efforts; I’d love to develop stronger abs and tone up. This is coming from a good place and I refuse to let it take an unhealthy direction.
Kinetix = kinetics = movement = motion = flow = change.
This has already been pretty interesting.
In the act of letting my previous identity go, I now have the chance to assemble it part by part. What would the new me be interested in? Cooking well, working out, working hard. Let’s see what I can find to inspire me.
This blog is about me.
And what I want and who I want to be. I don’t want an audience that knows who I am; it’s too restrictive. There are parts of my identity that I want to explore further, but don’t necessarily want to broadcast.
This is about the summer. The move. Living somewhere new. Letting my shifting surroundings stimulate growth. I want to thrive. Gym, cooking, good conversations,...